When I wasn in highschool I wasn´t like the typical student who dreaded September. For me the end of Summer was somehow welcomed back with the excitiement and anticipation of the new school year. Sure I was usually sad to see the end of the carefree summer days, outiongs with friends, the late night movie sessions with my siblings and the extra hours of working(or as I like to call it "life learning") with my Dad at his car rental business but I also loved the start of September.
For me September meant starting over, a fresh clean slate to study harder and get better grades, to meet and make new friends, to try out new things like playing the saxophone or synchronized swimming. I used to buy my new school agenda, and flip through every crisp blank page and eagerly write in my family and friends birthdays so that I wouldn´t "forget" them in the busy months to come. A fresh start, a new agenda and a lot of hope and aspirations for a bigger and better year.
When I moved on to University these feeling was the same except in my final year when I knew that this would be my last perfect September. I would no longer have that security of knowing what September would bring. There was no certainty just unkonwn and that was quite terrifying for me. The real world and it opportunities were tempting and very exciting but at the same time very risky. There was not guarantee that I would have something produictinve to do everyday. There was set path, nor organized road that would lead me to achieveing my goals. From here on in, it would be upto me.
Five years on and down that road of uncertainty of Adulthodd, I can honestly say that I still love and dread September. Over the last three months my life has taken many twists and turns, as I tried to reorganize and gear up for September the month where everything can start anew. Much like I did back in high school, I set new goals and together with my husband we tried to pull out a few hopes and aspirations out of their fuzzy and intangible maze and broughtthem into fruition. The results have yet to be seen so far, but that is part of the excitement of the month of September. We plant the seeds today to see what will bloom after the winter.
